CHANGES.

So many things have happened since I last wrote in here. Maybe I should consider turning this into a monthly blog. But then again that calls for a routinary thing, and I’m anything but routinary, so I guess I should just keep up with these spontaneous bursts of information and inspiration.

For starters, I ended my stint in my former office around two weeks ago. My last day was on a Thursday. Marvin dropped by at the office to take care of some office matters that he left and to accompany me home. Friday, we went back to the office to count how many hours we have worked in the office. I know it’s somewhat early for me to do these things, but that’s less work for me to do later on when I would really have to count my hours for the board exams.

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I started work with my current office last week. (FYI: Just for everyone’s info, my new workplace is located in Alabang.) Things started a bit slow since Sir JRP was still out of the country on the day I started, so I really had nothing much to do. But eventually, I found myself with some items to accomplish.

The workload in the office wasn’t burdening, compared to my previous workplace. In fact, it took some time for me to get used to the fact that I can leave the office before dark, and many of my officemates (there aren’t really many, hehe.) leave the same time as I do.

But adjusting was another thing altogether. I guess I got so used to a lot of ‘practices’ and ‘rituals’ in the former office that I found myself getting all sentimental and wistful over a lot of things. For example, I miss how Ma’am Cel recites the 3 ‘o clock prayer everyday, without fail, at the said hour. I also miss having lunch by the poolside with my friends, or at the park with my honey. I miss heading towards Mini Stop during breaks. I miss running to and fro the office, talking with different people about their projects. I even miss how I write xerox forms and leave them on my boss’ desk for signing…heck, I even miss the proof of the ‘organized chaos’ theory who is my boss…

*sob*

Okay, okay. Before I totally lose it in here, I guess I’ll just write about what I take comfort in. The people in the office are friendly, the hours are less punishing, the projects are more personalized, and there is a more open form of feedback in the workplace. I have my own workspace, which is something invaluable to me….in a nutshell, a better working environment. Hmmm… I’m still in the process of convincing myself. After all, this is what I left my former office for right? To give myself a break and find better opportunities for growth?

*sigh.*
I guess I should begin to feel detached from work. Maybe it’s the sixteen-year-old part of me – indeed, I am still trying to find my place in the sun. And I do so with a touch of naivete and great expectation, which may be nice but sometimes leads to disappointment. I should also start to differentiate career growth from happiness, or at least not confuse the two with each other…

Right now though, I just feel happy whenever I hear my honey’s voice, or whenever I feel the breeze on my face whenever I walk towards the office, or when I see my friends whether in person or online….

…or when I remember how I felt when I gazed at the trees not too long ago.