It’s funny where and how fate and circumstances lead us. One day, I was a happy-go-lucky college student whose only worries are studies and money for gimiks. Another day, I was a newbie kid fresh out of college, whose only concerns are trying to follow orders and working her way through apprenticeship. And yet another day, I was donning uniforms, attending meetings, and other work routines in another office.

And now, I’m a bum, staring at the computer and basically wondering what fate has in store for me.

I want to rant, scream “unfair”, cry foul. I don’t deserve this. All I wanted was experience….but life is teaching me very fast that experience can be a bitter pill to swallow, and that there are things that are beyond my control.

Sometimes I do not know what to believe. At times when I almost convinced myself that I was destined to suffer from my decisions, someone comes along and reminds me that these things happen to people who have something better in store for them. I truly, truly want to believe. But in such instances, I just turn numb. I don’t know what to think. I don’t know what would be my next step.

God help me…