Thoughts from a young girl.

Today was my first day of my review classes for the board…well. 2-3 months of self-imposed dull weekend mode. I decided to enroll myself in a review school in Manila at the time I was still unemployed, so tada! Actually, I still am not planning to take the board exams, but wonder of wonders, I was sitting with a roomful of January 2006 board passer hopefuls for the entire day today. I even made a couple of friends in the review school.

Anyway, I think I made a good choice. I think I’ll learn a lot in that review school – which both excites and alarms me. Learning something new is always good, but kinda makes me reflect on whether I really learned anything with my work experience. Waah…talagang effort to study! I always have no clue to what the teacher in front of me is talking about. Normal ba yun? Hehe.

Iniisip ko na lang, it’s a good thing I’m not yet planning to take the board exams. Based on the amount of info I learned today, (not RElearned as I thought the case should be.) it’s pressure on my part to be catching up on all these info if I were really to take the board exams this coming January…and no breaks too.:( There’s work 5 days of the week and review 2 days of the week. My mom asked me why I even chose to review, since there’s no immediate need yet.

Hay….

Hayyyy….

Adult life is getting to be really corny, promise.

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I am amazed at times when the little kid in me resurfaces. Hindi ko alam kung in denial ako or what. Just a couple of days ago, I learned that a friend of mine would be leaving for greener pastures. Reason? Primarily to save up for the future…to someday settle down with his girlfriend and have a family.

Hindi ko ma-imagine, hindi ko ma-imagine. I know he’s a guy and he’s supposed to be thinking about these things eventually, but he’s just about my age. Gosh.

Yeah I know. There are a lot of things that we do today that we do not just because we are in it for the present, but mainly to establish some sort of foundation for whatever future plans we have. I mean, for example, people don’t normally choose to take graduate studies for the noble cause of self-actualization and nothing else. It’s usually a stepping stone to something.

Anyway, I was just thinking of my friend who’s making all these decisions that I associate with adults. I think it’s great that he’s finally moving closer towards his goal, but in a way I can’t help but think what I would do if I were in his shoes.
Pressure pressure.

Or siguro naiisip ko lang itong mga bagay-bagay na ito ‘coz at this age I’m now just thinking of myself for the moment – thinking about self-involved, self-actualization geared plans like taking the board exams, pursuing graduate studies, etc. Maybe it’s still hard for me to comprehend that there are people my age who are actually making more adult/selfless/responsible decisions at this point in time. Or maybe I’m just in denial…

Ang labo ko ba? Anyway, this is my blog, so I can be as abstract as I want.^^;;