I had my wisdom tooth extracted today. Well, I should have had it extracted it last March, but due to a combination of lack of time, resources and courage, I had it delayed. But then I realized all those are just excuses because I didn't really feel any need for my tooth to be extracted. It was just...something that had to be done at one point. So anyway, I took advantage of the holidays to have it removed.

I would spare the reader the details of my extraction. All I have to say is, it wasn't as bad as I thought. While my orthodontist and her sister were busy working on pulling my tooth out, I was thinking that it isn't really the actual pain that scares most people away from the dentist's office. I didn't feel any pain, only the sensation of pressure It's what they visualize what the dentists would do on their teeth.

I recently learned that a college friend of mine has a terminal illness. It really hurts to think about it. He's not a really, really close friend of mine, but at one point, we became friends. We traded advice on things related to school, career and otherwise. There was...concern. He was one of the many friendly upperclassmen I felt comfortable greeting and chating with for a while.

Besides, he's so young. It hurts to think that such energy and promise being cut off at a relatively young age. It's also sad to think of what his family and friends are currently experiencing, and how they are all putting up a brave front for my college friend's sake.

For my friend...my prayers are for you...

WHAT MATTERS MOST

It's not how long we held each other's hand
What matters is how well we loved each other
It's not how far we travelled on our way
Of what we found to say
It's not the spring you see, but all the shades of green
It's not how long I held you in my arms
What matters is how sweet the years together
It's not how many summertimes we had to give to fall
The early morning smiles we tearfully recall
What matters most is that we loved at all.
It's not how many summertimes we had to give to fall
The early morning smiles we tearfully recall
What matters most is that we loved at all.
What matters most is that we loved at all.

In a way, I want to write. I want to write about a lot of things. But...I don't know, I just can't seem to put my thoughts into words as easily as before.

Right now I feel a bit sad for some of my friends. I have a friend whose beau would be leaving soon to try out his luck in another country, and my heart goes out for her. I know a couple of people who would also be leaving soon. They're not really really, close friends of mine, but just the same, I feel affected. I feel sad because someone dear to me is also sad. Sigh. Just when I was starting to get to know these people...and you can't help but wonder how they would fare out there. I can't help but wonder how they could stand the distance, leaving their loved ones behind.

Funny, but I didn't feel the same way when Rish and Chow left for Singapore. I could consider myself pretty tight with them, but maybe I knew that someday I'll see them again. And maybe because I knew that Singapore for them meant the start of big adventures. I knew that they'll make it out there.

Oh well.

Till They Take My Heart Away - Kyla
I look into your eyes,
So far away.
There's trouble on your mind,
You're losing faith.

Hey now
Let me hold you.
It will be ok.
Cause I will love you,
Till they take my heart away.

Remember when you called,
And said goodbye.
You thought we've lost it all
And so did I.
Even if I lost you,
It will be the same.
Cause I will love you,
Till they take my heart away.....
Believe, I'm here to stay.
Cause I will love you,
Till they take my heart away.

Now we're stronger than before,
We made it through.
I never felt so sure,
Because of you.
Hey now, are you listening.
Can you hear me say,
That I will love you,
Till they take my heart away...
Believe, in me, I'm here to stay.
Cause I will love you,
Till they take my heart away...
Believe, in me, I'm here to stay.
Cause I will love you,
Till they take my heart away...
Away, away, away.......
Cause I will love you,
Till they take my heart away.