Sucky
Sometimes it sucks to be an adult. I'm beginning to think I really don't have what it takes to be one. I was struggling to finish my sideline and at the same time study for the board exams, and to finish my day job as well...and, well, ma just voiced out my innermost insecurities. Shoot. Parang whatever elation I had over my accomplishment for today just went down the drain.
How can other people handle such load and stay calm and collected? Sometimes I feel stupid for trying to balance such things. At other times I feel useless because I'm not preoccupied with things. And like now, my frame of mind is, I'm wasting all this effort but in the course of doing things, I'm not making people happy. And I'm not making myself that happy either.
Does that make me selfish? How come other people seem to balance things and make other people satisfied as well?
Anyway, sorry for this post, I just need to let that out.