CHANGES.

So many things have happened since I last wrote in here. Maybe I should consider turning this into a monthly blog. But then again that calls for a routinary thing, and I’m anything but routinary, so I guess I should just keep up with these spontaneous bursts of information and inspiration.

For starters, I ended my stint in my former office around two weeks ago. My last day was on a Thursday. Marvin dropped by at the office to take care of some office matters that he left and to accompany me home. Friday, we went back to the office to count how many hours we have worked in the office. I know it’s somewhat early for me to do these things, but that’s less work for me to do later on when I would really have to count my hours for the board exams.

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I started work with my current office last week. (FYI: Just for everyone’s info, my new workplace is located in Alabang.) Things started a bit slow since Sir JRP was still out of the country on the day I started, so I really had nothing much to do. But eventually, I found myself with some items to accomplish.

The workload in the office wasn’t burdening, compared to my previous workplace. In fact, it took some time for me to get used to the fact that I can leave the office before dark, and many of my officemates (there aren’t really many, hehe.) leave the same time as I do.

But adjusting was another thing altogether. I guess I got so used to a lot of ‘practices’ and ‘rituals’ in the former office that I found myself getting all sentimental and wistful over a lot of things. For example, I miss how Ma’am Cel recites the 3 ‘o clock prayer everyday, without fail, at the said hour. I also miss having lunch by the poolside with my friends, or at the park with my honey. I miss heading towards Mini Stop during breaks. I miss running to and fro the office, talking with different people about their projects. I even miss how I write xerox forms and leave them on my boss’ desk for signing…heck, I even miss the proof of the ‘organized chaos’ theory who is my boss…

*sob*

Okay, okay. Before I totally lose it in here, I guess I’ll just write about what I take comfort in. The people in the office are friendly, the hours are less punishing, the projects are more personalized, and there is a more open form of feedback in the workplace. I have my own workspace, which is something invaluable to me….in a nutshell, a better working environment. Hmmm… I’m still in the process of convincing myself. After all, this is what I left my former office for right? To give myself a break and find better opportunities for growth?

*sigh.*
I guess I should begin to feel detached from work. Maybe it’s the sixteen-year-old part of me – indeed, I am still trying to find my place in the sun. And I do so with a touch of naivete and great expectation, which may be nice but sometimes leads to disappointment. I should also start to differentiate career growth from happiness, or at least not confuse the two with each other…

Right now though, I just feel happy whenever I hear my honey’s voice, or whenever I feel the breeze on my face whenever I walk towards the office, or when I see my friends whether in person or online….

…or when I remember how I felt when I gazed at the trees not too long ago.

I just came home from a late night coffee after work gimik with office friends. It was my honey’s last day before his study leave. Two days from now, my own resignation would be effective. Tonight seemed like a fitting night to go out and celebrate.

Anyway, as I told my honey earlier, I was reminded of what I thought was the greatest thing with being in my office. It was the chance to be with good friends. I honestly never thought that my stint in the office would end this way – I thought it was just a quiet thing.

It ended so differently. Marvin’s ‘batchmates’ and my own ‘batchmates’ from the office were there. Needless to say, I’m so touch by everyone’s thoughtfulness. . I’m glad to have known such nice and decent people in the workplace.I’m glad I have someone to share this occasion with I’m glad to leave at a time that I’m still high from the things I’ve learned from the office. Come to think about it, okay din pala exposure ko sa office. I managed to learn how a specifications writeup is prepared. I got exposed to shop drawings. I learned to be meticulous about minor details. I learned to be systematical. Fongi’s right – everything’s better in hindsight.

I really should thank my boss and my senior bosses for the chance they gave me, for taking a chance on me even though I don’t have any experience at all….

Anyway, I can’t help but be nostalgic about today. Earlier, Marvin and I were at the park – the first time while we were eating lunch; the second time, earlier this evening, while waiting for our friends to join us after their overtime work. I turned wistful at the sight of all the acacia trees that formed a canopy over our heads. I don’t know…I guess there’s just something about gazing at them that makes me treasure the things I have, yearn for better things to arrive…

…I suppose that in a way, it fills me with hope for things to come.

You Are 16 Years Old

16 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

--> 'Kit ba?:D

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Today i realized was reminded of two things:
...from the selfish
It's such a nice feeling to hear a childhood crush say he finds you pretty.

...to the selfless
It's such a nice feeling to be able to lessen someone's apprehensions away. :)

You Are A Realistic Romantic

You are more romantic than 60% of the population. It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

Today was another Sunday spent cleaning my room. I’ve been doing this ever since last Sunday, when I spent another day pulling out the contents of my closet, color coordinating my shirts and vacumming the piles of dust bunnies in the corners of my shoe cabinet.

Anyway, for today I partially cleared out my bureau. I didn’t realize I kept so much sentimental junk like painted pebbles from my childhood days, bazooka joe comic strips, broken hairclips, this modeling clay sculpture given by a friend in high school, forgotten small bottles of lotion and other goo that I didn’t find useful, a pair of kiddie sunglasses and 80’s visor complete with broken lights, and a whole lot more.

Hardly suitable for a drawer of a 23-year-old.

Just to cut the long story short, I got rid of them. It feels good in a way – I can’t wait to fill my drawers with real makeup, thanks to Tatin who suggested products that I can use. Yeah yeah, I know I’m a bit late for such things. I’ve tried investing in makeup once, when I was with a certain choir group who was a stickler for the type of makeup. But I soon left that choir group and I didn’t find much use for makeup after that, save for lip gloss and lip balm. So there.

Hopefully by next Saturday I’ll also be able to straighten and clean out my other drawers and my PC.

*Currently listening to ‘Lost Memory’, a track from ‘My Sassy Girl’.*

It’s been a looooong time since I’ve updated this blog. One of my friends remarked na patay ang blog ko – oh well, I replied that I guess when you’re happy you tend to write less, hehe.^^ Most of my journals usually reflect my sad state – siguro I have more things to write about—er, vent, when I’m down.

UNTANGLING THE PIECES.
Anyway, a lot has happened since then – and a lot of realizations that came with it. Most of my thoughts nowadays are centered towards my transition to my old office to the new one. I must have gone through a whole gamut of emotions over that move – anger, regret, sadness, happiness. Maybe because at this point, my personal and career life is intertwined – I’m having a hard time making decisions because I keep worrying about the possible impact it might have on more than one aspect in my life. But then again, everything is really intertwined…

I don’t know…at this point it feels weird to go through each and every feeling I’ve gone through in the past couple of days. I’ve shared bits with my friends and chunks with my honey….well. It’s in danger of being similar to an overplayed song. But I suppose it just proves that everything so far has been worth it.

I mean to share some of the pics I took last Friday at GT tower, during one of our lunchouts.^^